in response to bigshot34... Don't take out ur frustration on the one who has created u in the first place, whatever u're going through,, remember u ain't the only one,, there are ppl dreaming about just being in ur place,, just thank God for being alive and being able to say what u just said,, (some ppl dream about having fingers to type) so, Believe in God, he'll never let u down, even if it seemed like it, u never know what could've happened if he done what u wanted. Keep that in mind buddy.